r/SuicideWatch Mods Want You to Kill Yourself, Don't Let Them Win

As if we all needed another reason to hate Reddit. 3/13/2024

The current title of this post is only a general observation, and is honestly a better practical assumption than the opposite, with how terrible that corner of the internet is. I elaborate more on this below.

I'll post-process this blogpost later, but I thought I would begin thoughts onto this currently-dead blog as a PSA. The moderators of r/SuicideWatch have reserved themselves a cozy place in hell for the amount of isolation they create for those in the most need. The rich thing is, they see it as best *not* to ever inform commenters, or "repeat offenders," that their posts are being removed. Out of sight, out of mind, right?

Frankly that's the same mindset that surely brings so many to a space marketed like that in the first place. The criteria, like any typical liberal-dominated tech place in the year 2024, is murky. Mentioning the general value that some might see in religion, or Christianity specifically, is a good way to get quickly (and silently!!) removed. Mentioning C.S. Lewis books is also a good way to get removed. Anything that breaks the mold beyond "you are heckin' valid!" is a good way to have your post removed.

I am not an expert, as I would tell anyone and made a point of disclaiming there (which, at the beginning of recent anonymous-modmail correspondence, has already been used against me, but there may be more to follow). From what I have seen, criterias that may help people are as follows;

*Travel more before thinking any more terrible thoughts. The world is bigger than whatever you've seen and not living before at least seeing some more of that first is a waste, in just about any system of logic a person might carry. Postponing bad thoughts in favor of something like a trip is self-serving to the suggestor, too, but it is important to emphasize that doing so is *important*. It should be treated with a severe importance. There's a few things or approaches that one might take, to help a person combat invasive thoughts that such a direction might afflict them with (e.g. "but this would derail my current career schedule!"), and cycling this back to severe importance is one good way to try and approach that.

*Change your scenery. Related to #1 but is of a different scale and implementation. In a book I am habitually skimming, "Letters of a Self-Made Merchant to His Son," it is noted by the author that every man does well by changing his type of diet and means of living every so often. Eventually, on threads like that, you find people trapped within health-insurance-necessity cycles where they otherwise live paycheck to paycheck, which combats against trying to do this and compounds things. General advice on trying to minimize the impact of any one of those things approaches tough decisions requiring a back-and-forth and medical/other professionalism to fully weigh in, but if you so much as suggest any of these ideas on Reddit, that's a heckin unwholesome downvote banned-post, ya' dig.

*Christianity is a backbone and it helps. C.S. Lewis writes several books persuasive to weaker Christians and fence-leaning athiests. GK Chesterton does too. The one I often site from C.S. Lewis is the passage from Mere Christianity, "How to Love Jesus Christ as the True God, if I have accepted that as fact but do not believe I feel any natural inclination to love Him?," the question poised as paraphrase, answered in a shoddy paraphrase (with precise wording and more uninvasive disclaimers), "then act as though you do." Basically as a Pinocchio thing. And, continuing, "to try and view the relationship God has of us, God calls us His children, when, through our sin, we could not be anything further but. However, through this, we are able to grow into it. Like how a dog among humans can become more human-like, our own role within God's plans for us is much much greater than such a comparison as this." I may edit in the exact text later.

Generally, all of C.S. Lewis's work as well as GK Chesterton's can be found both on Youtube as free audiobooks, and in free PDF book-forms online, alongside other easy-access formats.

You also run into other great things, that are easy to take-for-granted as a Christian but are sorely lacking in other forms of thought. A God that forgives *others'* sins? Unheard of. Also noting, that we are all equally low as sinners, hearkening back to the Beattitudes, the bar "impossibly" higher than the 10 commandments, but Jesus loves us and will see us through so long as we strive. Saying that the other stranger is good, is surely true, and necessarily true if nothing else, but the belief, as a backbone, of the equality amongst sinners, is something else, and goes beyond certain platitudes and 1-to-1 relationships. r/SuicideWatch mods know better than to allow something like that to be alluded towards (sarcasm).

What else...

*"I came back from the military and have dark thoughts": This approach is a difficult thing for myself to approach on any level. If amicable to it, the internet personality Terrence Popp, former triple-tabbed first sergeant and head of non-profit Second Class Citizen, does a lot of work against all s&&cides, but does not (within his public work) have any real opposition to s-words relating to major terminal illnesses. But his work is profound. His book, "The Warrior's Way and the Soldier's Soul," particularly carries a few points of wisdom within it which could resonate with a person. Or not. Please feel free to comment or otherwise get in touch with me if you have thoughts on expanding help from a person (aside from the obvious; directing to resources ETC.) over any of these categories or others, things to mention or discuss that might help give a person hope or add good time to a situation. That is of course of interest, and could be good to implement.

Misc. Notes: Even sporadic topics, in response to "please talk to me about literally anything so I don't kill myself" posts are banned, reducing comment counts from 1 to zero. These psychopaths have undoubtedly messed around and have gotten an uncountable number of people killed to help preserve their own sense of "self-cleanliness." These people are scum.

If you try to approach the issue on only secular grounds, responses get more difficult on certain subjects (and here I would reinforce, to this readership, that not only is the Christian-stuff wise, but it also happens to be true. But wise may be good enough and quicker to prove to some people). The one that quickly comes to my mind tonight; "live for the simple joys, like enjoying an ice cream cone, or the pleasures of watching the sun rise," scarce do anything against the pains of watching a loved one die, of old age or otherwise. Or one's own end-of-childhood, and much later on, the slowing down of one's body. Big picture views help. You have to meet people where they're at, and *listen*. Reddit moderators don't care, and remember, these guys basically assisted-s-worded many guys and girls open to such persuasion at their weakest--and continue to do so. "Love all, serve all," as some song by Fujii Kaze goes, but remember who serves as an enemy when they strike you with apathetic smiles.

3 hours and half-a-Saturday well spent! But now we're here again, I suppose. I don't remember how I even--actually, through checking the post history of a user on an unrelated subreddit, after seeing a disturbing mention in their post on the unrelated sub, is how I discovered that space tied up some time in the whole escapade.

What a sad waste. I consider myself somewhat good and articulate on such subjects, even though I'm not an expert, and please feel free to comment or otherwise privately get in touch if you would like to discuss general thoughts (but knowing how unresponsive I may be, due to log-outs etc., and other things, please do not reach out only to me over personal emergencies, particularly those in-line with this subject. I trust that my intentions show through this as good and will move on, to prevent getting any more tangled in wordplay.)

Housekeeping! I suppose I may get back into writing, **and** posting it someplace readable. I may not commit to the dual-blog, Tumblr-and-Blogspot, but we'll see. Twitter is unusable for the time being, and for all of the forseeable future, though I am (very casually) investigating the prospect of doing something with Facebook, or other sites.

Take care, you all. Love yourselves and I hope to write to you real, real soon!

Cheers, -Will (3/13/23, 1:31 A.M. EST)